Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up in your face
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up in your face
A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...don't you think
A little too ironic...and, yeah, I really do think...
(For the record, I despise this song, and Alanis Morissette.)
IT'S CONFESSION TIME MY FRIENDS....
My blog is called "Think Happy Thoughts," right? So, one would think, that the author of said blog is a happy-go-lucky girl loving every day and living life to the fullest - like the one in the pictures in the header, right?? And all her posts are about her happy thoughts and her wonderful life? Maybe...maybe that's what my posts looked like - but truth is - those posts were not written from the heart.
Yup, I am a big fat liar people. A lot of my blog posts over the past year (August 2011-August 2012) have been a fib. I am sorry to say that in no way does my blog match me or the life I was living.
DON'T HATE ME!
I was having a rough go at life. Maybe I hinted that I was miserable, but I never got into the nitty gritty - the truth of what was happening every day, and what I was really thinking. I hated my job and was really depressed and spent more time on the couch glued to the boobtube than I did talking to anyone. Frankly, I was wasting my life away feeling sorry for myself. And hurting a lot of people around me.
So isn't it IRONIC that my blog is called Think Happy Thoughts and I couldn't formulate a single stinkin' happy thought last year? I had happy moments - but thoughts - they were negative.
WITH ALL THAT BEING SAID...in comes "The Happiness Project" by Gretchen Rubin and out goes Mad Mrs. Bear.
Today is the first day of a new me. It's my first day back as a teacher (no students yet) and I am going in with a clear mind. I have been working on this "new me" for a few days now...reading this book, taking notes, and writing down goals for my own little Happiness Project. I'll let you know how it goes, once it gets going. Maybe I will even share my goals with you! Until then - I am going to continue to "Sing in the Morning and Fight Right."
"What you do every day matters more than what you do once in a while." - The Happiness Project
"What you do every day matters more than what you do once in a while." - The Happiness Project
What do you do to "Be Happy"?
Hang in there girlie! You are going to be okay...you have to find your happy place in every day moments with every day people....doing well...normal things. A lot of my days look the same: get up at 5, get ready for work, get my daughter and husband up and moving to start their days, head out the door and basically tell the world they won't get me down...no matter what happens! Attitude is key! Keep working at it...you'll get there!
ReplyDeleteGlad you are turning things around- it was clear you weren't in a good place.
ReplyDeleteWow. Kudos to you for being honest your blog. YOu are going to see such a difference in your blog now because of how honest you will be. Let's face it, we all know which blogs are real and which aren't so real. But it's not up to us readers to tell that blogger, it's up to the blogger to realize it on their own. It's ok to blog about the bad moments, bad days, sucky kids, etc. It's what makes blog reading so real and how people can truly feel a connection with you. So, congrats to you. You know I am always here to give any encouraging words I can with you on your bad days. Love ya missy!
ReplyDeleteI look forward to reading how you will be reaching your goals! It's hard to be honest with ourselves but I definitely think it helps us in getting to that happy place :)
ReplyDeleteI hope that you find your own inner happiness. I think we all struggle with that at some point and if we fail to admit it, we're lying. I have up (when things seem wonderful) and down periods (when life gets monotonous) and it's important through these times to just think of the wonderful things in your life and try to be thankful. *hugs* Good luck girlie!
ReplyDeleteI totally hear you. Teaching is really, really hard and I don't think people give it enough credit-- whenever someone hears I am a teacher they get all, "thats so great! how fun!" and I'm like, "its so great! challenging but fun!" when really I'm thinking how miserable it is and how I haven't had one day yet in which I felt like I made a difference. I feel like a mutant when I think I don't like teaching.
ReplyDeleteThat being said, I'm really hoping this year turns out differently. I'm ahead for once and hoping I can be happy with my job at least 3 days a week. I love your idea of a Happiness Project and looking forward to seeing your journey!
I love this. I write often about my battles with negative thinking and its something I’m over coming. I’d love to hear how this is going for you!
ReplyDeleteI am happy that your best GF gave you that book. As your Mom I could not tell you that you need to think Happy Thoughts to be Happy. I had to let you find that out for yourself and that you need to be honest with yourself. To thine self be true! I am looking forward to a new year for you.. a new way to look at what are obstacles in your path. Enjoy the career you love in spite of the bumps, and you know there will be many. Embrace the things you love, remember them when the bad gets in the way. Keep Christmas in your soul :) Love you!!
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